Wednesday, January 4, 2017

2016 Summary

To summarize:

From my limited perspective, I feel that 2016 was a rough time for me, the United States and the world.

My near family did fairly well.  I received a fifth grand child in this year, a girl and she is doing just fine.  I saw her over the holiday season. The whole grandchild process is a reminder of how time not only flies but lurches over huge blocks of dark matter.  When you do not see a new born for a few months it is no longer a new born and there is the palpable realization of how fast we age.  My mom is doing well in spite of her aging process, she is so sweet, still.  Mom is amazing, that is all I can say.  My children continue to surprise me.  As they age, I see them make decision I did not have to address.  They are dealing with those issues satisfactorily.  I generally feel I should have prepared them more completely for life's challenges and yet, there they are creating solutions with optimism and hope.  I felt very empty this year as it zoomed past.  My lazy habits got the best of me and my "take the easy way" attitude for life is constantly catching up on me.  I keep hope that the world will not see the hapless, fraud of a human being standing in front of them.  I remember the childhood game played in the dark streets of Akron and continuously keep "kicking the can" down the road.  There is some joy in that I am becoming a pretty fine kicker.  I feel that I am balancing on a fence rail between insolvency and high cotton.   I will ultimately be given my due and paid handsomely for it.  My due may be eternal damnation (which you do not hear about any more) or it may be creating master works of art like Mount Rushmore.  Although I find it easier to love, I find fewer people I want to love.  I know that sounds a bit sinful but there you go.  Dilemmas like that are the bane of my existence.  Fortunately for people that encounter me, whom I love is not really a choice but is a mandate from God. 

The United States is getting a new president this year and also is embracing hatred and violence.  Usually a new president is just that, a new president.  We need new ones ever once in a while, they wear thin after a while.  A new president is like a new tennis racket.  I am playing tennis now and even though I have tried several different old rackets lately, I still need to obtain a new one and have no idea how to pick one.  You cannot really try out a racket or a president and return it to the 5 and 10 if you do not like it.  You pick the best one you can based on the parameters and your needs and just jump in with a selection.  I had my old tennis racket and the strings broke, kind of like Bush invading Iraq.  What a disaster.  When the strings popped, the fragile frame cracked and could not be restrung effectively because it was cracked, like Bush.  Our country has broken its catgut, its inner fiber that strings the whole mess together and gives the entire framework of the Constitution incredible strength.  I had to go with my second choice, a racket my son left at the house when he moved out.  Now, my son only buys nice stuff so it is a sweet racket and I liked it.  It was forceful and solid.  A presidential trait for sure.  The results of my tennis game were almost instantaneously optimistic.  Unfortunately, this racket caused massive damage to the tendons in my elbow and eventually I could no longer even grip the bastard. This fine, expensive racket was no longer helping but was hurting the entire game, like a president possibly could.  With my third racket choice, I have had to "settle" for a clearly inferior racket with some surprising and unrealized attributes.  Some days it seems like the racket has the right stuff but other days it sucks and so I lose ground on my overall game.  I still need a better racket to build a better offensive and defensive game.  Settling for a lesser racket or a lesser president is not sound plan for success.

In 2016, the world has embraced hatred and marginalization.  I do not know how the world had time to embrace any other moronic ideologies else but they did.  There must have not been enough people hating other people because the Hate-o-Meter has gone far into the red.  The Europeans hate each other.  The Irish hate each other again.  South African hate everybody and everybody hates South Africa again.  The steady Aussies hate Indonesian and now they even hate women.  Everywhere, people feel it is OK to hate and degrade women, gays, transgenders and anyone who looks like these groups.  The Scandinavians, the Canadians and the Kiwis seem to  be holding their own but hate mongers are on the edges.  We were fortunate this year to see a gay, homophobic Muslim terrorist kill people in Orlando.  It is a shame he was not black and from Syria and also follows Falun gong as to encompass all the persecuted stereotypes so that every one of those ignorant MF's could get on a soap box and give credence to watch lists and first strike  mentality.  As inflamed as my elbow had become, my country is also having an inflammatory response of hate and intolerance.  It is the result of systemic infrastructure decay, the racket has a crack in it.   I am a thousand times more afraid of my neighbors than I am of any religious or foreign entity.  Partly because of proximity but mostly because of the pervasive ignorance which bubbles up hate and intolerance.  Twenty years ago it was well known and accepted that bigotry, hate and intolerance were wrong and should not be tolerated in society or ourselves for that matter.  We as a people were the police.  We did not pass on prejudices and hate to our children.  We said something in public if we  saw abuses. Our Congress gleefully passed laws promoting morality and fair treatment to all.   There has always been hate and that cannot be legislated or eliminated, but now it is acceptable to insult and assault verbally or physically those that are different from us, want to do us harm or  that just pissed us off.  I blame the tennis racket for my painful tendon but I did not beat it to a pulp or turn to social media to razz, stalk, threaten legal action or belittle the makers and designers of the racket.  People I work with "hate" other people and share that information openly with me.  People I consider reasonably normal have let fear mongering and gossip derail and injure their lives.  Repairing those live will take years and possibly generations.  The year 2016 was the year of the Syrians.  Their entire country and population was blown to hell by all the major powers of the world, some new and some old.  Most if not all of the people should be extremely pissed off at the Turks, the Russians, the Americans and their own government.  The death and destruction was not of their choice or making.  It was political and foreign. The Syrian people do not hate everyone, they just want to go to sleep and wake up safe from bombs, ideologies, imperialism and mostly death.

Next year, we will have to get back to blaming the Africans, not just black Africans  but Muslim blacks, "they are cannibals you know".  I actually heard this said  a few years ago.  It is this kind of ignorant hatred our country has maintained underneath the acceptable fabric of society. Next our society will return to harassing lepers and any "confused" people that are just trying to get through the day.  These are the types of attitudes that in the past, most people tried not to pass on to their children, the kind we ALL knew was not acceptable.  The Klan wore hoods for a reason.  Our governments and our society has continued to nurture these attitudes.  If ideologies are not fed and nurtured, they will starve and die. I know that I will be exposed personally and locally to ignorant, bigoted hatred and many of its cousins, violence, fear and fascism in the year 2017.  World fears of terrorism are only symptoms of poor economic and social problems that cannot be calmed with fanatical police states and walls, real or imagined.    I suspect it will be a tougher go for 2017 and with a ton of surprises.  Sound economics, social responsibility and  better detective work is a practical approach to problem solving.  The key words are "practical" and "problem solving."  I do not see many people in positions of power looking for practical solutions and I only see fear in faces of the rest of us. So I will skip ringing in the new year. 




Thursday, September 1, 2016

Goats in trees.  I can not and will not say anything more.!

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

comfort

Have you ever not felt comfort for an extended period of time?  In our self centered world we are all about ourselves and our comfort.  I remember when I was in Honduras for twelve days and as I finally sat down on the airplane with the air conditioner, no dust or noise, there was something unfamiliar surrounding me.  COMFORT!    There were no sharp edges or rocks, there was no sand in my shoes or underwear.  Sweat was not in my eyes and dripping off of my body.  There were no bugs in my ears, gnats in my socks or spiders trying to use my nostrils as a den.  I was not consumed by odors that I could not identify, odors that only days ago were foul and categorized as awful but now have textures and nuances.  I do not think I want my odors to have nuances.

I remember spraying bug spray and mosquito spray in a circle around my sleeping bag and making sure it had a zipper that worked so I could completely zip myself up inside the thing, like a mummy's pouch.   Sure I had trouble breathing and it was one hundred degrees Fahrenheit, that is thirty seven and one half degrees Celsius because I was in Honduras, but I was safe from all kinds of evil that wanted my crevasses.   The floor of the burned out church was flat and moist with the occasional crack running the length of the cloister.  From inside my sleeping bag the only sound I could here were the bats dive bombing for the insects trying to thwart my defenses.  I could live with the bats, after all, they are mammals and you can reason with mammals sometimes.  I tried sleeping on my side but my arm would fall asleep and I would wake with a throbbing pain that had no origin but I felt it in my fingertips.   I slept on my back which means I snored very loudly.  I am sure the bats were upset.  Insects do not mind noise.  I knew a fly that used to sit with me while I jack hammered the living room.  He would stay on my shoulder and only once in a while flit of only to return.
Comfort, yes.  Well, the last few days I have been in a rotten mood.  While complaining to myself because at times like these, people just do not want to listen.  Friends are vacant, enemies are surprised you would talk to them until they realize you are not talking with them but at them and they wander off remembering why you are not a friend.  I could not figure why I was in a bad mood.  I had everything I needed, a job, food, I could go for months without it, a car that runs, children that do not hat me.
  It was comfort.  I was lacking comfort.  A comforting nod, an unexpectedly soft foot stool.  Socks that do not snag on your toe or heel but rather encapsulate your foot in soft cotton.  I was missing a meal that you wanted to hold in your mouth and savor for as long as possible.  I want to enjoying a perfectly made glass of iced tea while sitting under an oak tree welcoming a cool breeze.  It has been a long time since experiencing a pleasant sound in my ear, a note that swarmed around the inside of my head like the final note on the "Let it Be" album.  I am subjected to the rattle of the road, pot holes and poorly constructed manhole covers that jar your teeth loose and are only on the other side of the tracks.  My tennis shoes make more noise than the electric door at the supermarket.  I squeak like someone walking with a rubber duck in his shoe.  I need to move like I have wings on my feet and clouds under my heels.  I need to savor for hours a seventy eight percent cacao bar that bathes my mouth in creamy ecstasy.  I need a shower head with a three foot diameter and two thousand holes delivering water that surrounds me like a hot waterfall.  I need a bed with fresh linens that are so soft you do not even know they are touching you.  I need the comfort of my mothers food, Halupki that will make you cry with joy.

That is what I need.







Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Tin soldier

Some of you older people may remember the song "One Tin Soldier".  It was the sound track to "Billy Jack", a radical, in your face anti-establishment movie.  Well, this song was very popular and the lyrics are as follows:
1 Listen children to a story
2 That was written long ago
3 'Bout a kingdom on a mountain
4 And the valley folk below

5 On the mountain was a treasure
6 Buried deep beneath a stone
7 And the valley people swore
8 They'd have it for their very own

 CHORUS

Go ahead and hate your neighbor
Go ahead and cheat a friend
Do it in the name of Heaven
You can justify it in the end

There won't be any trumpets blowing
Come the Judgment Day
On the bloody morning after who
One tin soldier rides away

9 So the people of the valley
10 Sent a message up the hill
11 Asking for the buried treasure
12 Tons of gold for which they'd kill

13 Came an answer from the kingdom
14 With our brothers we will share
15 All the secrets of our mountain
16 An' all the riches buried there

17 Now the valley cried in anger

18 "Mount your horses, draw your sword"
19 And they killed the mountain people
20 So they won their just reward

21 Now they stood beside the treasure
22 On the mountain dark and red
23 Turn the stone and which beneath it
24 "Peace on Earth" was all it said

Go ahead and hate your neighbor
Go ahead and cheat a friend, blah, blah.
 One Tin Soldier rides away!

There are a few points to be made about these lyrics and are important to discuss.  But first, I must digress to my tender age of fourteen years.  As I was hearing this song for the first time, I was thinking  about line 7 and 8.  The valley people are so rude. Now with true heavenly grace lines 13-16   I thought, "Boy isn't that nice that the mountain kingdom is willing to share all it has with the valley people".  Line 17-20 shows that the valley people were not willing to share even shit that was not theirs.  I was an impressionable child and I was crying for the mountain people,  All of those children and old people that were butchered.  Tears were running down my face.

Now we have a show we can watch called "Game of Thrones" that reminds me of this song.  Line 23 and 24 were even more shocking.  "Peace on Earth" was all it said.  I was stunned.  If I was the sole survivor of the mountain kingdom,  I would be pissed.  My emotional roller-coaster was a rough ride that continues every time I hear the song.  Today our entire country acts like the valley people and they are proud of it.  Somehow it is standing up against something and we cannot be treated that way.  Someone should slap our parents silly for not slapping us silly every time we acted selfishly and rude.

And finally the Tin Soldier thing.  What is a tin soldier.  Is the current definition a result of this song?  Is there an old English definition of it.  I do not know. This has always bothered me.  Were armor suites ever made of tin?  There was a bronze age but no tin age.  I think bronze has tin in it.  How does tin feel about copper and bronze getting an age in history?  What is an age?  And finally, is the tin in the soldier the same as a tin horn dictator which is a bad thing?




Friday, April 15, 2016

Friday Music 04-15-16

 Every morning I wake up with a song in my head and a pain in my bladder.  Here is a quick recap of the songs.

Monday Morning - Easy Living   Uriah Heap
Tuseday Morning - A Horse with no Name  America
Wednesday Morning - Run Through the Jungle  Credence Clearwater Revival
Thursday Morning - Stealin when I should been Buyin  Uriah Heap
Friday Morning - Smackwater Jack  Goffen and King